Keeker’s Stuff

I have a lot of secrets…well, they belong to other people, but I have them. For some reason, they seem to land in my life, surrounded by the promise of silence.

I have secrets that I’ve held for years. Some that belong to people I don’t even know anymore…some belong to people I don’t even like anymore…some aren’t even particularly scandalous, but I have them, and that’s where they’ll stay…with me.

I find it amazing that you can tell whether you’re leaving a secret in the right place…you absolutely know if it will be honored or not…you KNOW…and still, when you risk it and leave it there, you seem so surprised when it’s betrayed.

I usually don’t tell my secrets. I’m just not that willing to reveal things, and frankly, my secrets aren’t all that interesting, really…but on that rare occasion that I do hand one over, it’s to someone I’ve known for years, and someone who has proven over and over that they will honor the offering, no matter how small it may seem to them. Maybe that’s why people are so willing to dump the truck into my life…maybe it’s my silence that makes them unload…if I’m not telling mine, I won’t tell theirs…? Who knows?

So who are the people that can’t keep the secret? The insecure? The unloving? The deceptive? The ones who MUST let you know that they KNOW something you don’t? Or the ones who keep it safe and secure, until the right moment…and then slowly sneak up behind you and slit your throat with it? That’s a good one…use it against you…yea, I love that..it’s a really good tool for completely destroying a relationship…I know there will be nothing to recover if something I’ve revealed ever comes back as retaliation. If you want me to go away, throw something in my face…I will.

Good or bad, having someone’s secret empowers you…with responsibility. You have control over that part of the relationship..you’ll either maintain it with loyalty, or destroy it with betrayal.

In the end, what you do with that empowerment will ultimately define…your character.

I’ll take them to my grave.